Besides completing my electronic recommendation, I've been trying to study the crud outta Preach My Gospel. I've been worried about not being prepared enough or not knowing the scriptures that much, that i'd epically fail. I've been worrying about all the little things and just feeling a lil overwhelmed. Ever hear the saying " Have you prayed about it, as much as you talked about it?" Well i was feeling that i prayed about it alot more than i talked about it. I dont like to complain even though i do have my moments. As i take time to reflect, I'd like to share a couple of events where I felt the Lord's hand in my life. I love the Temple. It's definitely a house of learning and my refuge. I woke up one morning and felt that i should go. It was cold and snowing and i was so lazy. But i got my butt out of the apartment and went. I sat there thinking how amazing it was to have the privilege to be so close to a Temple. When i looked at the girl in front of me and it was Katherine Cross. She was a girl back in my home ward and we had drove to institute together. I hugged her and basically had a little reunion. My heart was full and even though she didnt say much, she had calmed my spirit and made me re-realize the love & desire of going on a mission. Another instant, again i was in the temple, and i was reading my scriptures. that week i kinda was thinking about what i was gonna do about my job and everything i had to leave behind. And Have you ever read a scripture and knew it was something you were suppose to read? or deff helped in some weird way? well for me It was reading D&C 31. I read
"Behold, verily I say unto you, go from them only for a littleatime, and declare my word, and I will prepare a place for them.
Be afaithful unto the bend, and lo, I am cwith you. These words are not of man nor of men, but of me, even Jesus Christ, your Redeemer, by the dwill of the Father. Amen."
I thought i was taking this way too literal (cause someone once told me, sometimes i take stuff too literally) but then this chapter kept bugging me. so i studied more into it. It was given to Thomas B. Marsh. At the time , He had been called on a mission but he was worried about leaving his family behind and basically what he had to sacrifice. i found it funny that i was worrying about the same thing. Ya know i find comfort in the scriptures. Maybe i am taking it to literally, maybe i'm not. All i know is that i'm serving a mission, it's 18 months. 18 months is not alot of time in the eternal perspective of things. I am Finding confront in that the Lord is intricately involved in our lives and that he knows each one of us. He has a plan for our lives. In the CES devotional last night he said something along the lines of his life is not at all what he had planned out. But He is happy. he's alot happier than he probably would have been. This whole experience has been humbling and everyday I thank my Heavenly Father for the tender mercies that he shows me everyday.