So Once again the Lord blesses me so much more than needed. I don't know why, I'm not that great but the Lord always makes sure i feel loved and gives me all these blessings and tender mercies that i so don't deserve. And I am grateful for that. I can Definitely say that prayers Work!! I went in for a test on New Years eve, The test wasn't that bad i actually feel asleep through half of it , so that was good! Today i went to My specialist and Finally he saw the extent to my Problem. Turns out that I Don't need surgery until after my Mission! I am forever grateful for the thoughts and prayers that were given!
Besides that It's been good to be home. I am Home till March 5th So I'm trying to settle in, at least for the time that i have left. I have gone back to work and it's been busier than ever! I'm guessing its cause it's the flu season and It's the Holidays. I love what i do ,and the people that i work with, so that makes it worth while. I continue to study and i actually went out shopping this weekend. Mission shopping is kinda a hassle like everything is either too short or too tight. So i'm glad i'm starting now so i'll be ready by March.
This is a learning experience i know that i still have a long way to go. I feel like i have just started my upward climb. I feel like i've had everything thrown at me. I have been bombarded with Negative comments and opinions often. Some people don't understand why i'm going on a mission "doctrinally" Or they have "bitter" feeling towards it. I've been told its kind of an interruption in my life. Some people feel that I shouldn't go and think that is unfair. My heart aches and i wouldn't wish some of the pain i feel on even my worst enemy (if i had any) But ya know what, in the end i'm grateful for it. I am grateful for all the of negative things of this whole mission decision. I don't know why it happens but It has taught me to see people with a more Christ like love. To not judge and criticize people for their choices or how they choose to view things. It has taught me to try to understand where Everyone is coming from. I have been humbled with each tear i have shed and learned to Lean on the Lord .
Not everything that has been thrown at me has been bad though. Someone told me the other day that it isn't often that a person goes out and does what they've always wanted to do & said "good for you, I wish i would've done that" I have also received tons of "congratulations" And on the day of my mission call opening I received flowers. ((Thanks btw!))
Theres one last thing that i'd like to kinda share with you guys. Theres this mormon message and its a quick 9 min video. This Woman is definitely an inspiration for me. Always reminds me that even though things a rough or if theres something i'm struggling that the Lord does hear our prayers. That no matter how bad of a day we are having that we are not alone. There is a divine plan for our lives that will bring us the greatest joy we can hardly imagine. Like i said this is a learning experience. Every time i pray about it, the same feeling always overwhelms me. I feel at peace and that everything will be alright. That this is the right thing to do and things will fall in place. That this is my Life and come what may and Love it. I look forward to the future of 2013 with an open mind and Open heart :)
"When in suffering, we may in fact be nearer to God than we have ever been in our entire lives. That knowledge can turn every such situation into a would be temple. Regarding our earthly journey, The Lord has promised: ' I will go before your face. I will be on your right hand and on your left. My Spirit shall be in your hearts and my angel round about you to bear you up.' This is an everlasting declaration of God's love and care for us, including and perhaps especially in times of trouble" -Jeffery R. Holland